Jaxon-Bear, Eli. “An Outlaw Makes it Home: The Awakening Of A Spiritual Revolutionary”, New Morning Books, 2018.
Finding Fulfillment and Love
We live in a world filled with many diverse people yet I am sure that we all search for love regardless of ethnicity, gender, sexual orientation, etc. and that search takes us on journeys that are all very different. Eli Jaxon-Bear shares his journey with us and he has an ulterior motive of teaching something as we accompany him on his quest. This is his personal memoir that is sensitive, funny, exciting and an enjoyable read. As in any memoir, there are surprises and changes along the way. There is not a boring sentence here.
This is more than just a story of a search for a better lifer—it is an odyssey and a journey of self-discovery. I became so involved in what I was reading that before I realized it I had read through lunch and dinner and then half of the night and this is something that I rarely do. If you lived through the 60s, you have an idea what to expect here. Jaxon-Bear had a Brooklyn childhood and came of age during that radical decade. Of course, there comes a time when sex, drugs and rock and roll no longer provide what we want out of life and it is necessary to look elsewhere. For me it was to go and live on a kibbutz and help build the state of Israel but for Jaxon-Bear it was a serious quest for spiritual wisdom and enlightenment. It’s a lofty goal and the quest for it is filled with mistakes and sidesteps. Rather than these deterring our author, they made him stronger and more determined. I especially love that he challenged traditional teachings and followed the path he set out for himself and we see that the end res not the way of getting to it.
I am quite sure that it I the honesty of this book that kept me reading I do think that it is important to understand that liberation only means freedom after it has been achieved. The freedom that Eli Jaxon-Bear sought was the freedom to be himself and we see that this is only possible after someone discovers who he really is. We read about his being outside the law, his escape to Peru, his usage of drugs and women, places such as Japan, Morocco, India, a return to the earth as a farmer and the discovery of what home is and means.
Jaxon-Bear had been attacked on a civil rights march in Alabama; he became a federal fugitive in a cabin in Colorado, spent time in the uncharted Andes and at a Zen Monastery in Japan and at a Sufi initiation in Morocco. Yet he returns to where he wanted so badly to be— home.