Das, Ansh. “Always Forever: From the Depths of Sorrow Begins a Journey of Hope”, CreateSpace, 2012.
AD felt that his life had fallen apart when he went to the funeral of Mikee. He was totally overcome with grief but with the help of Mikee’s family and friends, AD was able to put his life back in order. I am a really sentimental guy and it is not hard for me to let the tears flow and I suppose one of the reasons for that is because I lost almost all of my friends to AIDS. When I read of a couple separated by death, it really gets to me and the story of AD and Mikee is very touching. We are with the two men from the time they meet until one of them is no more. Beginning in Manila on the eve of a Mr. Gay World pageant, the two fall in love and the relationship becomes a trans-oceanic love affair for a while and I fell in love with both of them.
AD flew to Manila to attend the Mr. Gay World competition and to report on it. There he met Mike Francis and something caused the two to come together. AD realized that he had found Mikee, the boy with angel wings tattooed on his back and he knew he loved him. He moved from Hong Kong to be with him but then just three months after they met, Mikee was dead. AD was left to deal with the loss and this is when he really got to know his lover. He learned that Mikee knew that there would not be a future together and now he had to deal with that fact. It was in death that Mikee was able to teach AD something about life and he shares the emotions he felt and still feels with us. Through Mikee’s death, AD embarked on a journey towards finding happiness and peace. As AD battled grief, he emerged as a new person and while this is not easy to read, we learn something about dealing with loss.
The book is also a tribute to Mikee and to AD for having the ability to put all of this into words.